Build up my faith

I'm just going to briefly write down what I've been learning. I've been "forced" to take the mrt instead of the bus now that I've moved. Its usually a 10 min walk to the mrt, and the mrt is crowded so i've to stand. For the past few days now, I've began reading on the bus. I've been reading Always Enough by Roland & Heidi Baker, which is an account of God's work through the couple amongst the poor in HK, London, and finally Africa( Mozambique). Wow, their faith is amazing! And the faith needed to do missionary work in the third world is great! I'm so humbled, as I know that I don't have that kind of mountain moving faith. But if I can pinpoint what the year(s) of preparation means- God is preparing & building up my faith. Come on, if I cannot have faith in little things here, like work and talking to bosses and praying for my cell group members, what makes me think I can have faith for God's providence in missions, or God's miraculous power for the poor and sick? So much miracles are going on in the book. Yet not only miracles, but also many obstacles- serious ones of being chased out of their building, and having to feed & provide for the lodgings of 300 children after they were chased out. And everyday children turn up to their door steps, some have been raped multiple times, whereas others have seen their parents being killed in the war/on the streets, children with no arms and legs cos they are victims of abuse, and many have bloated tummies and flies sticking to them. It can get so disheartening and emotionally draining. I know that God is preparing me and building up my emotional capacity to be able to reach out to the people He has placed in my heart. But not just my heart, I gotto guard it and renew my mind this year. Shall continue to make it a point to meditate on God's word, believe in His promises and build up my faith on the way to work every morning! :) Remind me Jesus...

Was listening to a Corrinne May song, and it was in the context of her mum praying for her. Yet I became aware that Jesus is interceeding on our behalf in the heavenly realms. Dear God, thank you for yr song, for yr love for me. U are watching me grow, but also walking alongside of me. Help me to remember and to have faith in You. My God is big.